Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Prince Charming
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
The Singing Psychic?
Friday, August 10, 2012
Eighteen Years Ago
Eighteen years ago.
Eighteen years ago today, August 10th, I was having incredibly horrible
headaches, I had been vomiting for days, was nauseas, feeling as I was the size
of a whale, couldn’t see my feet and cried constantly that the baby just needed
to GET
OUT OF ME. The next next
day, August 11th, after a routine OB/GYN visit, I would be sent to Labor and Delivery at
Hutzel Hospital in downtown Detroit with the staff perplexed as to what to do. The
baby was breach, facing the wrong way, and I had pre-eclampsia. Preeclampsia and eclampsia are most often
characterized by a rapid rise in blood pressure that can lead to seizure,
stroke, multiple organ failure and death of the mother and/or baby. They
determined that baby was good, but I was not and so a C-Section was ordered for
as soon as possible. They warned me that I would have to be in ICU for a few days
just to be closely watched, but they promised that I would be able to hold her.
I didn’t have time to mourn the idea of not having a normal labor, instead I
found myself strapped to an operating table, covered with a paper gown with my
husband holding my hand as I threw my guts up and uncontrollably shook all
through the surgery. I still can remember hearing her tiny cry, them telling me
that she was completely healthy, and handing her to her daddy who let me look
at her beautiful face and kiss her forehead. It was love at first sight. Her
blue eyes sang stories only an old soul could sing. We named her Micaela
Brooke.
I was
sent over to ICU for several days, and on the first day awoke to a dozen red
roses that her father had brought me with a card thanking me for gifting him a
beautiful daughter. The nurses awed over the sentiment. With so much pain
medication, I dozed in and out, barely being able to hold her and not at all
able to bond with her. I was finally switched over to a regular room where I
slowly began to feel better and was able to do normal mommy things, like change
her diaper, wash her, and feed her. After what felt like months, but was only 7
days, they finally let me go. I just wanted my own bed, my own home. August 11th
Monday, July 23, 2012
I Believe
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
It's Alright to Feel - Even if it is Sadness
To show your human side, Kristy, only shows others that you understand.
Ugh. I have to be human? :)
Last week my dad had a heart attack. If you didn't see my posting on my other blog site, it is here under What Matters. It wasn't his first, and I had mentioned a few weeks previous to my mother-in-law that I was concerned he was rapidly climbing the hill towards another. I do great in crises. I immediately go into action, know the right answers, know the answers quickly, seek out the answers if I don't and I realized that I sort of block myself from emotion. I did it with my mom's illness and with her death too. It would be almost six months later that it all hit me, the energy Novocaine wore off and it all hit me like a ton of bricks. It wasn't healthy either, and still isn't. I don't think it is avoidance, I think it is just how I deal with it, because avoiding would be - well, avoiding, but I delve deep into the crises and take care of business. That wouldn't be avoidance. I did some soul searching yesterday and realized that it was re-programming from previous relationships who hated when I cried. Hated when I felt. And to hear constantly, "Stop crying and take action", I guess that is what I do now. But it is a balance of the two that must be met.
How do you handle a crises? Do you feel? Do you act? Do you feel and act?
The past few days I have been in a funk. Mad would text me and my mind, all a fuzz, would generically text back. I am not even sure I wanted (or want) to talk about the funk because I am not sure what the funk is. Oh, I can complain. Can't we all? But it runs deeper than the surface complaints of the house being a mess, the kids running me here and there, the kitten having a cold, etc.
This morning I decided to spend time writing and just be with me. The kids away, my dad asleep, Chuck asleep. And the animals...well, they are running around, but I can tune them out. Instead of writing, though, I went to Pinterest. Looking at pretty things, sort of like window shopping, was all I wanted to do to see if I could clear my mind, and a simple picture threw me into a fit of tears, which I believe helped me - feel.
My mom, who passed away in January of 2006, loved anything with roosters on it. I hated them. Roosters? They are mean animals, I would tell her. Why roosters? She had the whole house at one time decorated with roosters. I used to joke that when she passed on that I didn't want the roosters! Well, when she passed away we sold most of her rooster collection, except for one piece that my husband felt was important to keep and it sits on the top shelf in my kitchen. When we went to Gettysburg a couple weeks back, I kept seeing roosters and would smile, thinking that mom was showing me up. See, Kristy, roosters are cool. As I went to my Pinterest today, I clicked on 'Popular' and saw a room that I fell in love with. It was a living room painted yellow with a crisp white fireplace. I clicked on the link and was taken to several photos of a house that I loved, with a decorating style called French Country/Nantucket Inspired. And in almost each of the pictures were - roosters. Now, I know you decorating experts will tell me most French Country has roosters in it, but I don't believe it was a coincidence. I believe it was my mom telling me to continue to believe, that she loves me, what I want is coming - and to buy roosters. :)
So when you are in a funk - remember that there is always people around us here, and on the Other Side, who want to make us laugh.
Believe,
Kristy
Monday, July 16, 2012
Mercury Retrograde:" An Excuse When Everything Goes Wrong?
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Cents Sense
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
I Believe
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Magick Comes In All Packages
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Dare To Begin Your Journey

We are almost into the third month of the year and I wonder how many have reviewed their goals for 2012 and either hid their eyes to pretend they even made them or tossed them in the garbage and said, “Maybe next year”. There is a Chinese Proverb that says “To get through the hardest journey we need take only one step at a time, but we must keep on stepping”. Those first steps can be frightening and confusing especially if you aren’t sure which direction to go. It is so much easier to bury ourselves in self loathing and excuses, but is far from attractive.
How many times have you discovered that you weren't given the promotion that you believed you so well deserved or the so-called love of your life dumped you and instead of thinking that a door closed and another (and better one) will soon open, you pouted, stomped up and down, swore, and pretty much allowed the bitterness to envelope your soul? I think we’ve all gone through something similar, but I want to remind you that as soon as you let go of the anger of the situation, new blessings begin to shine through. So in essence, you are sabotaging the very thing that you want. You are building the walls that block your journey. Your true journey.
So if you’re upset and think that life stinks, I dare you to begin your journey. Throw off the blankets, put some nice clothes on, dry your tears and take one step at a time. Before you know it, the right doors (and people and situations) will present themselves and you will wonder what all the fuss was about!












